Finding a Calling

When I left Cornerstone (my high school), I had no idea what I wanted to major in. Well, that’s not entirely true, I actually had too many ideas of what I wanted to major in: education, psychology, social work, business, communications, law. And there wasn’t a single one that stood out more than the others. And this bothered me. I’m a planner and I like to know what’s coming next, and to feel like I’m in control. But God had another plan, and by His timing I would learn patience and see His hand at work, see that He was in control all along, and I never needed to worry.

I was interested in event planning, and the summer after graduating I interned with my youth pastor as he helped direct The Hartford Project, or THP. My plan, was to gain experience in event planning, even a week-long event like THP. But throughout the summer God mostly grew my love for the city and the people of Hartford and afterwards I wasn’t sure if I wanted to go into event planning.

Entering college in the fall, I was an undecided major, or as Gordon says to be more positive, a “deciding” major. But I didn’t look at it positively. Instead, I felt lost. At one point I was asking my roommate why we were even in school. Being an art and education major, she responded reasonably by saying, “I don’t know about you but I’m here to learn how to teach art and how to manage a classroom.” Oh, right, that makes sense. But why was I in school? What was the plan in all of this? Would I graduate better prepared for the world, ready to enter any profession? Or would I be just as lost in four years as I was right then?

Well, first semester I explored the idea of law by taking a politics class. I thought I could practice law, working for Hartford residents. But once I realized how much I HATED doing research, I decided being a lawyer was not a good fit for me.

So where could I turn next? Education certainly seemed like an option, so I registered for 3 ed. classes in the spring. One night I was on the phone with my mom, talking about how education just didn’t seem right for me, for a variety of reasons. And she pointed out an obvious fact I couldn’t see on my own: my heart wasn’t in teaching; it was in helping the people of Hartford. I never wanted to teach for the sake of teaching, I wanted to teach because I liked kids and wanted to work in the city.

But what work did I love? What talents had God given me? I loved planning; I loved organizing and running things. And that all sounded like a great fit for a business major. Near the end of my first year of college, I finally declared a major – Business Administration. And two minors – nonprofit management and urban ministry. It was a perfect fit – combining the practical talents and passions that God has given me.

Last summer, after completing my first year of college, I again interned with The Hartford Project and another organization called Urban Alliance. My desire to work in the city only grew as a result, and I learned so much about nonprofit organizations and the work God is doing in Hartford.

This past semester I took 3 business classes, and found confirmation that God is calling me into the field of business. One class in particular, intro to management, was taught from such a strong Christian perspective. When I tell people this they are often confused or surprised. They wonder how business and Christianity can be connected. But thanks to my professor, thinking about business from a Christian perspective seems natural now. God created work, and in the Garden of Eden, before the curse, work was good. And management, well that’s all about people and relationships – who better to look to for guidance on relationships than God?

In business, as in all areas of life, God uses Christians to restore His Kingdom. So whatever majors or careers you enter into, even in your current classes or jobs, remember God is present there too. Yes, He can call you into business. Just like He can call you to be a missionary, a teacher, a journalist, or anything else. Because God has purposefully created you. And He has a unique plan for each of you. Who God made you to be fits wonderfully with God’s plan for you. And if you don’t feel prepared, He will provide what you need. If you lack direction, He will show you where to go, even when it’s just one step at a time.

And it’s in taking the first step that God further reveals His plan. So even today, remember He is with you, He will guide you. It’s okay to try one thing, and keep searching until you find the right fit. Because as you step out in faith, God will continue to show you the next step, in His perfect timing. We might get stressed out, wanting to know more now. But God has been teaching me this comforting truth: God already knows the plan; He is in control and we can trust Him.

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